July 4th is a day I celebrate freedom and here’s my favorite Independence Day one-liner. 😂
I see Celsius and raise you degrees of #FREEDOM!Tweet
This year, July 4th has a special meaning because I’ve decided to pursue forgiveness.
This all started because my coach called me out for not having done “the homework” as I talked about about my wins this week on our call this morning. I shared my wins with the coaching group but I was angry. 😬
I haven’t done “the work” because I just can’t be motivated to work on the computer when I’m chained to it for 40 hours a week. 🙈
I realize what a cop out excuse this is as I’m typing this out now but I have my reasons for not wanting to do “the work”.
I think it’s because addressing this stuff hurts.
Now, let’s see if I can talk about my big wins this week being less angry. 🙌
Big Win #1
I won friends and influenced people by thoughtfully contributing to the discussion. Last weekend, I left a one-word comment on a single post and managed to gain an extra 7 LinkedIn connections from senior leaders in my industry within a 12-hour period. First, it was the author of that post and then it was people who resonated with my comment. I actually posted about this on LinkedIn and received this notification today.
Like seriously, you don’t make this stuff up! ⚡
Big Win #2
I managed expectations like a boss this week. I learned how to negotiate without feeling guilty. Truth be told, this is a skill I wish I learned sooner but better late than never. I forgive myself. 💕
…which brings me to the subject at hand.
What’s on the other side of forgiveness?
My single-word answer would be FREEDOM. 🙌
BUT IT’S SO HARD.
I understand that
Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.Tweet
So what’s my hang up about letting it go?
Honestly, I think I hit it on the head this morning when I pinged one of ladies in my coaching group this morning and told her:
I think my problem is I’m still using it as a crutch because re-telling the story makes me feel like the hero.
That was such a huge unlock for me. #tearsofjoy 😭
I’m holding onto so many past hurts because re-living the story makes me feel like the hero and that’s validating. (READ: I overcame so much, now go build me a monument.)
I guess here’s where my work really comes in.
If it weren’t for this, that, and the other, I would’ve never discovered my true strengths or stepped in my true power. Without chapter 2, there can’t be a chapter 3.
Coming out of today’s coaching call, I actually completed a tapping meditation on forgiveness this morning. Truth is, I saw this weeks ago but the thought of doing it just made me cringe. I don’t know what came over me but I completed this today.
Not that a single blog post is going to fix everything and everything will be instantly peachy again. 🍑
I appreciate my coach calling me out this morning. By helping me shed that baggage, I can catapult into something much much greater. 🌊
I choose to forgive. I choose to breathe. I choose freedom.
Inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit.
Until next time. ✨